August 27, 2005
it hasn't felt like summer. i mean it has been hot and humid and sunny and people are wearing less clothes and i am drinking more water, but i guess i mean i haven't been to the beach and i haven't left the studio early on fridays to sit at an outside bar and have hapy hour and i am pasty white. why suddenly, since i moved to the city, have i stopped living?
oh, i remember. it costs money to live here which means i work a lot...and the out of town guests and the open mic and the whole sleu of unhealthy relationships and blah blah blah.
alas, it is time for a break so i am leaving you...i am leaving for ten whole days and i'm not telling you where i am going (home) so you won't be able to find me (on the beach at sullivan's island) so don't even look for me (having bloody mary's at vickery's) cause i will be very busy (eating fried fish).
the really cool thing about my leaving is that my friends akron/family will be performing while i am away (three blocks from my house so i can just walk to their show).
hey, sorry it has been so long. my computer at home is down again so i'm just saving up for a new one. there are going to be some major site changes in the upcoming months to (hopefully) coincide with the release of this album i supposed to be working on. ( i suppose i am talking this much needed break from you to rember why it is i want to do this anyway. i mean, the hope is that i will go away and come back energized about my life here and my music and all, the fear, of course, is that it will be really comfortable and i just won't come back at all.)
REASONS WHY I LOVE NEW YORK:
1. my friends (this inlcudes HEARTH, the band i sing with)
2. engine room audio (where i work and where i am recording, where HEARTH just finished recrding)
3. constant opportunity to experience new things and be inspired by new people (mostly talking about music here, i'm not very bold)
4. walking
5. variety of food (which sort of falls into #3 but is important enough to me to have it's own number.)
6. public art installations (like the chimes in the 34th street subway station)
7. reliable public transportation (excluding the L train, of course)
8. convienence (everything i need in a four block radius)
9. opportunities to express myself and receive validation (playing shows)
REASONS WHY I HATE NEW YORK:
1. everyone that is not my friend (slight exaggeration, but only very slight)
2. cost of living/standard of living (my bedroom is 7' x 10', i love it's charm, but man is it small)
3. constant opprotunity to witness pain (on the subway, on the sidewalk, etc.)
4. filth
5. distance from family (i can't really blame the city for this but it is a variable)
6. the constant (though never talked about) thread of fear
7. noise
8. the constant artistic struggle (self promotion, time for self, etc.)
so at this point, love is heavier on the scales, but by a very small margin. granted, some of the items named hold more weight than others, my friends for example, who i can not imagine living without, the possibility of this new cd and the folks i love at engine room...those things hold a lot of weight.
not sure where i am going with any of this, just letting you experience my drama i suppose. i am so tired of the drama, by-the-way.
in conclusion, i don't have any solo shows booked, but there are a lot of HEARTH shows coming up so i guess you can check our site (still cockroachmusic.com for now but soon to be hearthmusic.net i think)
i will be in charleston soon so if you are in charleston and want to hang out e-mail me.
there are scratch tracks up on my myspace.com/amyhills site and they are available for download. not sure yet if any of them will actually be on the cd but i should know all of that info soon.
i hope you are doing well. despite how it may seem on this silly on line diary, i am actually doing pretty well i think. i was on tv this week which was fun, and the festival show was fun, and i really like my little apartment, and my roomate.
i don't know why anyone reads this thing. it seems so silly. it's just me, you know? i'm not that interesting.
anyway, hope you are having or did have or whatever a good summer.
love you
-a
oh, i remember. it costs money to live here which means i work a lot...and the out of town guests and the open mic and the whole sleu of unhealthy relationships and blah blah blah.
alas, it is time for a break so i am leaving you...i am leaving for ten whole days and i'm not telling you where i am going (home) so you won't be able to find me (on the beach at sullivan's island) so don't even look for me (having bloody mary's at vickery's) cause i will be very busy (eating fried fish).
the really cool thing about my leaving is that my friends akron/family will be performing while i am away (three blocks from my house so i can just walk to their show).
hey, sorry it has been so long. my computer at home is down again so i'm just saving up for a new one. there are going to be some major site changes in the upcoming months to (hopefully) coincide with the release of this album i supposed to be working on. ( i suppose i am talking this much needed break from you to rember why it is i want to do this anyway. i mean, the hope is that i will go away and come back energized about my life here and my music and all, the fear, of course, is that it will be really comfortable and i just won't come back at all.)
REASONS WHY I LOVE NEW YORK:
1. my friends (this inlcudes HEARTH, the band i sing with)
2. engine room audio (where i work and where i am recording, where HEARTH just finished recrding)
3. constant opportunity to experience new things and be inspired by new people (mostly talking about music here, i'm not very bold)
4. walking
5. variety of food (which sort of falls into #3 but is important enough to me to have it's own number.)
6. public art installations (like the chimes in the 34th street subway station)
7. reliable public transportation (excluding the L train, of course)
8. convienence (everything i need in a four block radius)
9. opportunities to express myself and receive validation (playing shows)
REASONS WHY I HATE NEW YORK:
1. everyone that is not my friend (slight exaggeration, but only very slight)
2. cost of living/standard of living (my bedroom is 7' x 10', i love it's charm, but man is it small)
3. constant opprotunity to witness pain (on the subway, on the sidewalk, etc.)
4. filth
5. distance from family (i can't really blame the city for this but it is a variable)
6. the constant (though never talked about) thread of fear
7. noise
8. the constant artistic struggle (self promotion, time for self, etc.)
so at this point, love is heavier on the scales, but by a very small margin. granted, some of the items named hold more weight than others, my friends for example, who i can not imagine living without, the possibility of this new cd and the folks i love at engine room...those things hold a lot of weight.
not sure where i am going with any of this, just letting you experience my drama i suppose. i am so tired of the drama, by-the-way.
in conclusion, i don't have any solo shows booked, but there are a lot of HEARTH shows coming up so i guess you can check our site (still cockroachmusic.com for now but soon to be hearthmusic.net i think)
i will be in charleston soon so if you are in charleston and want to hang out e-mail me.
there are scratch tracks up on my myspace.com/amyhills site and they are available for download. not sure yet if any of them will actually be on the cd but i should know all of that info soon.
i hope you are doing well. despite how it may seem on this silly on line diary, i am actually doing pretty well i think. i was on tv this week which was fun, and the festival show was fun, and i really like my little apartment, and my roomate.
i don't know why anyone reads this thing. it seems so silly. it's just me, you know? i'm not that interesting.
anyway, hope you are having or did have or whatever a good summer.
love you
-a
