July 11, 2004
someone once told me that the deffinition if insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. if this is the true deffinition, then i am insane. i am pretty sure that i have attempted several times over the last, oh, lets say, ten years, to drink unusual amounts and combinations of beer and liquor thinking that i would wake up the following morning feeling just fine. today i proved, yet again, that this is, in fact, not the case, and that one (i) should use better judgement when mixing drinks in large quantities. i did, however, have a lovely time last night. it was my best friend alex's birthday party and i danced. i also had really good sushi.
love you
-amy
love you
-amy
July 6, 2004
MEREDITH!!!!
so, we made it through the week of tribute events for Aaron and i really feel like i have come out on the other side with some semblence of peace. actually, the hardest part of the week, for me, was aaron's family leaving town yesterday. and , oF course, MEREDITH leaving town...but they will all be back, and i will be here waiting and missing them.
i talked to lach on thursday and we were both really emotional and sensitive and since he is also a scorpio, we usually either connect or don't and there isn't much inbetween...but one of the things lach said was as i went through the week of craziness and picture hanging and video editing and crying and all that....was to look for and cherish the moments of beauty. and there were just so many...fireworks on dave's roof thursday night after finishing the video, the walk across the bridge, christina getting up on stage with amos at the hoot on monday, pigging out on pizza at 3 in the morning on friday, everyone that played at the tuesday show and the friday show, the 4th of july cookout, the shot of really good tequila, getting to know people i have nEver even met before, fireworks that looked like weeping willows, there was just so much beauty.
so...i'm trying to turn over this new leaf of not making plans and asking for help. we'll see how it goes...yesterday was a disaster of an emotional rollercoaster cause sometimes i get so cought up in loving everybody else i forget to give myeslf any room and i get all insecure and i shut down. it was one of those days where everywhere i went i felt like the nerd in a class of cool people who all knew more than me and had their shit together....not suprizing i guess considering my week, but wierd. those days don't come very often. i don't like them one bit.
today seems pretty good so far....the weather is perfect. i'm going to go get some coffee and head to the Fortified Records office to finalize the schedule for the Antifolk Festival. (i know technically i just made plans and told them to you but those are frivolous and i just need to have something on the agenda...i'm talking about partnership and living situation and job and career plans...those are all on hold)
the info about where to send money for the camp in aaron's honor are on my homepage if you can, please give.
have a great day.
love you
MEREDITH!
-amy
so, we made it through the week of tribute events for Aaron and i really feel like i have come out on the other side with some semblence of peace. actually, the hardest part of the week, for me, was aaron's family leaving town yesterday. and , oF course, MEREDITH leaving town...but they will all be back, and i will be here waiting and missing them.
i talked to lach on thursday and we were both really emotional and sensitive and since he is also a scorpio, we usually either connect or don't and there isn't much inbetween...but one of the things lach said was as i went through the week of craziness and picture hanging and video editing and crying and all that....was to look for and cherish the moments of beauty. and there were just so many...fireworks on dave's roof thursday night after finishing the video, the walk across the bridge, christina getting up on stage with amos at the hoot on monday, pigging out on pizza at 3 in the morning on friday, everyone that played at the tuesday show and the friday show, the 4th of july cookout, the shot of really good tequila, getting to know people i have nEver even met before, fireworks that looked like weeping willows, there was just so much beauty.
so...i'm trying to turn over this new leaf of not making plans and asking for help. we'll see how it goes...yesterday was a disaster of an emotional rollercoaster cause sometimes i get so cought up in loving everybody else i forget to give myeslf any room and i get all insecure and i shut down. it was one of those days where everywhere i went i felt like the nerd in a class of cool people who all knew more than me and had their shit together....not suprizing i guess considering my week, but wierd. those days don't come very often. i don't like them one bit.
today seems pretty good so far....the weather is perfect. i'm going to go get some coffee and head to the Fortified Records office to finalize the schedule for the Antifolk Festival. (i know technically i just made plans and told them to you but those are frivolous and i just need to have something on the agenda...i'm talking about partnership and living situation and job and career plans...those are all on hold)
the info about where to send money for the camp in aaron's honor are on my homepage if you can, please give.
have a great day.
love you
MEREDITH!
-amy
