i am headed over to my friend dave o'neal's house to edit a bunch of video footage of aaron for the tribute on friday. as usual, every time conversation returns to Aaron i don't know what to say. his family is so beautiful and they are all here for the week, raising money for a playground in his honor. i swing in emotions from intense anger to peace and back to this sadness that, as a scorpio, i genrally don't want anyone to know about. i guess aaron didn't either. maybe that's why we got along...or because we were both flirts...i don't know. the tribute events are all posted on my homepage so check one of them out if you can and if not donate some money to the cause. some people have been telling me that people die when they are ready and that everything happens for a reason and that aaron is in a better place and right now i just feel like that is bullshit. he should be right here playing with his band and relentlessly flirting with christina and drinking with james and writing his brother and a whole host of other things. see there goes the anger. i think heroin was created by some devil to destroy people that have the potential to change the world. now that i have the inside scoop i feel it is my responsibility to let all of you out there that have that potential to stay the hell away from any kind of drug that makes you feel like god. it's a trick. it's a really good trick.

on a different note, extra special thanks to everyone who made it out for my party on the 19th. it was a dream, and i am glad that you were in it.

countdown six days till CD Release Party. um...i'm doing really great. i feel good, energy is high, i am really proud of the CD and the artwork is just awesome. Lippe took like 200 pictures and it was hard to chose which ones to use but i chose my favorites so if you don't like it you can lump it....and Brian Wurchum of the voyces did all of the drawings...for those of you wondering, all of the lyrics are included. it's a good first try for me. the sun just came out. it's going to be one of those days...started out good...perfect amount of sugar in my coffee...but then i just had a good weekend too...duende played on saturday and they are the coolest people...and i got to hang out with joie in the park yesterday and we ran into sage and watched drunk homeless people fight over the cvolume on their sterio...anyway, just wanted to say thank you, again, to all of you that make my life poeeible...i was thinking about it this morning...three years ago if you had told me that i was going to move to new york and run open mics and release three cd's and fall in and out of love and have a website and cool fans and friends i would have thought you were crazy (not that you aren't)...i never could have dreamt this life. it has it's problems and so do i, but i really like it most of the time....especially this week.

i hope that you enjoy my new CD.

have a great week and hopefully i'll see you on saturday.

-amy

as of today i have been in new york for two years.

i have a CD being released in less than two weeks that I am really proud of. more than that though, the "release party" is going to be tons of fun...all of my favorite people (with the exception of those i couldn't fit on the bill but wanted to; Ed, Casey, Scott Peterson, Patty Griffin, etc.)

I am at my sisters apartment, which may as well be called a mansion, and her cat is a nut case, but other than that it is good to be way out here in brooklyn for the day. She gets the times so i read yesterday and today and I have to say, things aren't looking so good out there.

I am planning Aaron's tribute night at the sidewalk and doing some work on that for the last couple of days has stirred up all of this stuff that i never dealth with. the day we found out aaron was dead i got on a plane and flew to south carolina for a week, so all of the mourning and group thearapy stuff that happened here in the city was over by the time i got back. i think releasing the CD will help give me some closure...three of the songs talk about him and his death and my feelings about all of it so i think getting that out in the world will take it off of my shoulders.

i think i may take the next hour to re-arrange my sisters place. their fung shwei is all f'ed up if you know what i mean. and this cardboard furniture stuff has got to go.
however, it is pretty nasty and cold outside...perfect excuse for doing nothing. maybe that would be "funner".

hey, thanks.

have a great day.

-amy

as of today i have been in new york for two years.

i have a CD being released in less than two weeks that I am really proud of. more than that though, the "release party" is going to be tons of fun...all of my favorite people (with the exception of those i couldn't fit on the bill but wanted to; Ed, Casey, Scott Peterson, Patty Griffin, etc.)

I am at my sisters apartment, which may as well be called a mansion, and her cat is a nut case, but other than that it is good to be way out here in brooklyn for the day. She gets the times so i read yesterday and today and I have to say, things aren't looking so good out there.

I am planning Aaron's tribute night at the sidewalk and doing some work on that for the last couple of days has stirred up all of this stuff that i never dealth with. the day we found out aaron was dead i got on a plane and flew to south carolina for a week, so all of the mourning and group thearapy stuff that happened here in the city was over by the time i got back. i think releasing the CD will help give me some closure...three of the songs talk about him and his death and my feelings about all of it so i think getting that out in the world will take it off of my shoulders.

i think i may take the next hour to re-arrange my sisters place. their fung shwei is all f'ed up if you know what i mean. and this cardboard furniture stuff has got to go.
however, it is pretty nasty and cold outside...perfect excuse for doing nothing. maybe that would be "funner".

hey, thanks.

have a great day.

-amy